Life's full of Lemons. It gets pretty sour.

For the past couple weeks, I have been feeling sad, depressed, stressed and basically worthless. I felt like I wasn't good enough and that I wouldn't make it at the University of Texas. After about a week of my mom telling and drilling in my brain that I am good enough and smart enough, and that it is okay if I have changed my mind on what I want to do with my life. That it is okay if I don't want to go to Pharmacy School and I would not let anyone down because she knows that I will do something just as good with my life, if not better, even if I don't go to Pharmacy School. As you can see I am one of those people that have their lives planned out. There is little room for error or change. After moving to Austin and starting school and completing my first round of tests and doing poorly on them, I have realized school is hard as hell. I actually have to work for this. I felt like nothing was going right and nothing would ever go right. My mom is an Angel from above. She knows me like the back of her hand. She knows just what to say in order to get me thinking positive and out of the slumps. After going through all this, I have realized what I want to do with my life. I want to go into Nursing. I want to be an Oncology Nurse. I always wanted to do something related to cancer and cancer research or cancer prevention. Becoming an oncology nurse will give me that satisfaction. I hope I am officially out of that depressed mood, and I can't wait to move on with my happy life! Peace out! Court

It's Been a While

Well, I accidentally clicked on a link that led me to my blog, so I guess I shall post something. It's been a while and many things have changed. First off, I now live in Austin! Most exciting place ever! I love it here! I now attend the University of Texas and bleed burnt orange with a passion! Everything here is amazing! School is hard, but worth the hard work! Things are slowly falling into place and I couldn't be happier! I have made awesome friends and met even more amazing people! Just a few of my awesome friends! That's all for now. I guess I could post something every once in a while to keep the world up to date. Peace Out. And Hook'em

Generosity

Flowers. Flowers. Flowers. They are pretty at a distance, have a scent to them that can smell good, or smell really bad. I never understood the point of them when someone sends them to another person. Flowers are pretty for a day or so, then turn brown and ugly then die. What is the point. I don't like flowers. I have received them twice now in two months. I don't like flowers. The idea of them might be good, but in the end the feelings fade and the flowers die. I don't like flowers. When I want something, I will let you know. In my previous relationship, I blatantly stated what I wanted for my birthday, Christmas, and Valentine's. I printed out pictures, circled in magazines, and picked out in stores. I never once asked for flowers, and never once got them. That is the only thing that boy did right. He understood how my brain worked (sort of) and he didn't try to mess it up by getting me dumb flowers. I don't like flowers. The ex never got me flowers, but he would occasionally surprise me with things I liked: fishing and hunting shirts, favorite candy, and dinner. I don't like flowers. This new boy that keeps getting me flowers, needs to learn, but probably won't. He asked me on the day of Valentine's what I wanted. I replied with nothing because for once I had not wanted anything. Well, this boy being younger than me, just could not grasp the idea that I did not want anything and decided to buy some damn flowers for me instead of granting my wishes of NOTHING! When I say I don't want anything, I MEAN IT! I don't like flowers, therefore DON'T BUY THEM FOR ME! I guess it's the fact that he is younger, he does not understand. He will learn one day. But I still HATE flowers.

Just bought this album today and I am already in love! Can never get enough Dierks Bentley!