Who am I when you aren't looking?

Who am I when you aren't looking?

Well I am the girl with the long socks that runs through the kitchen to see how far I can slide.
I am the girl that constantly checks her teeth in reflections to make sure I don't look embarrassing.
I am the girl that likes to read books for fun, but only by myself.
I am the girl that stresses out ALL of the time, but tries to keep her cool in public.
I am the girl that chokes down Advil with a CapriSun when I have a headache.
I am the girl that actually cares what people think, and takes it to heart.
I am the girl with a deep obsession with anything Apple.
I am the girl that enjoys being barefoot rather than wearing shoes.
I am the girl that gets home from school and puts on rubber boots to go out and feed cows.
I am the girl that likes to ride around on a fourvwheeler by myself to clear my mind and see how muddy I can get it.
I am the girl that would pick camo as a favorite color choice, if it was an option.
I am the girl that has a crush on Bon Jovi even though he is old enough to be my dad.
I am the girl that has feelings that are kept inside that no one will ever see.
I am the girl that makes *him* smile in ways that no other is possible of doing.
I am the girl that wants to have every thing perfect but is FAR from anywhere being perfect.

Therefore, I am a girl of many traits. There are many more that are not on this list, but you get the point.

cnt

My Oxymoronic Life

Well these days my life seems to be an Oxymoron. If you are inside and look outside you would think it was a nice warm summer day with the sun shining and a nice breeze. Perfect for the beach. Then BAM! you walk outside and it is 30 degrees.
Another oxymoron thing I do is at night. I enjoy drinking a glass of chocolate milk (which of course is loaded with sugar). Well then I can't sleep. In this case I down a couple sleeping pills WITH the chocolate milk. As you can see, I like to balance things out like a Chemistry equation. If I fail a test, I make sure and keep the rest of my grades up. If I know I am doing bad in a class and cannot change the fact, I work extra hard to be perfect in another class. If my make up looks wack on one side, I do something to the other to make it not look so bad. Same with my hair since I magically have 2 cowlicks in the back of my head(thanks DAD), that look like 2 perma-bumps. My life is awkwardly balanced and I enjoy it that way. If I was unbalanced in any way, I would be a very distraught person.

cnt

Guardian Angel

A poem I wrote for class. Thought it was good enough to put out in public.

Guardian Angel


Your presence is near.
I can feel it in the air.
I feel no breath,
but I sense movement.
You watch over my shoulder
to protect me
to care for me
to love me.
You are not really here
but you, my guardian angel
is within.