Cake and Chemistry

Today is June 12 and I am currently working on my chemistry pre lab assignment while baking a cake for Matt's birthday. It is a rum cake and by far the best cake I have made in my life. I will attach a link for the recipe at the end. It is pretty basic but requires a beater which is not a common thing in college student's apartments, thankfully my roommate likes to bake and we have one. This cake also has two of my favorite things: cake and rum. Who would have thought those two mixed so well together? Matt loves this cake and he isn't really a cake person, he likes the fruity desserts. So for him to love this is amazing. Now about the chemistry. I cannot wait to be done with summer school and chemistry in general. Future things in my life: I will be trying infused water soon. Probably start with some basic strawberries and lime or mint and lime. I can't wait!! Water is great by it's self but to add fruit flavors would be amazing! I'll try to keep up with these short postings now that I don't have as much going on these days. Just trying to keep my mind busy and not lose my sanity this summer. Peace Courtney

Life's full of Lemons. It gets pretty sour.

For the past couple weeks, I have been feeling sad, depressed, stressed and basically worthless. I felt like I wasn't good enough and that I wouldn't make it at the University of Texas. After about a week of my mom telling and drilling in my brain that I am good enough and smart enough, and that it is okay if I have changed my mind on what I want to do with my life. That it is okay if I don't want to go to Pharmacy School and I would not let anyone down because she knows that I will do something just as good with my life, if not better, even if I don't go to Pharmacy School. As you can see I am one of those people that have their lives planned out. There is little room for error or change. After moving to Austin and starting school and completing my first round of tests and doing poorly on them, I have realized school is hard as hell. I actually have to work for this. I felt like nothing was going right and nothing would ever go right. My mom is an Angel from above. She knows me like the back of her hand. She knows just what to say in order to get me thinking positive and out of the slumps. After going through all this, I have realized what I want to do with my life. I want to go into Nursing. I want to be an Oncology Nurse. I always wanted to do something related to cancer and cancer research or cancer prevention. Becoming an oncology nurse will give me that satisfaction. I hope I am officially out of that depressed mood, and I can't wait to move on with my happy life! Peace out! Court

It's Been a While

Well, I accidentally clicked on a link that led me to my blog, so I guess I shall post something. It's been a while and many things have changed. First off, I now live in Austin! Most exciting place ever! I love it here! I now attend the University of Texas and bleed burnt orange with a passion! Everything here is amazing! School is hard, but worth the hard work! Things are slowly falling into place and I couldn't be happier! I have made awesome friends and met even more amazing people! Just a few of my awesome friends! That's all for now. I guess I could post something every once in a while to keep the world up to date. Peace Out. And Hook'em

Generosity

Flowers. Flowers. Flowers. They are pretty at a distance, have a scent to them that can smell good, or smell really bad. I never understood the point of them when someone sends them to another person. Flowers are pretty for a day or so, then turn brown and ugly then die. What is the point. I don't like flowers. I have received them twice now in two months. I don't like flowers. The idea of them might be good, but in the end the feelings fade and the flowers die. I don't like flowers. When I want something, I will let you know. In my previous relationship, I blatantly stated what I wanted for my birthday, Christmas, and Valentine's. I printed out pictures, circled in magazines, and picked out in stores. I never once asked for flowers, and never once got them. That is the only thing that boy did right. He understood how my brain worked (sort of) and he didn't try to mess it up by getting me dumb flowers. I don't like flowers. The ex never got me flowers, but he would occasionally surprise me with things I liked: fishing and hunting shirts, favorite candy, and dinner. I don't like flowers. This new boy that keeps getting me flowers, needs to learn, but probably won't. He asked me on the day of Valentine's what I wanted. I replied with nothing because for once I had not wanted anything. Well, this boy being younger than me, just could not grasp the idea that I did not want anything and decided to buy some damn flowers for me instead of granting my wishes of NOTHING! When I say I don't want anything, I MEAN IT! I don't like flowers, therefore DON'T BUY THEM FOR ME! I guess it's the fact that he is younger, he does not understand. He will learn one day. But I still HATE flowers.

Just bought this album today and I am already in love! Can never get enough Dierks Bentley!

Who am I when you aren't looking?

Who am I when you aren't looking?

Well I am the girl with the long socks that runs through the kitchen to see how far I can slide.
I am the girl that constantly checks her teeth in reflections to make sure I don't look embarrassing.
I am the girl that likes to read books for fun, but only by myself.
I am the girl that stresses out ALL of the time, but tries to keep her cool in public.
I am the girl that chokes down Advil with a CapriSun when I have a headache.
I am the girl that actually cares what people think, and takes it to heart.
I am the girl with a deep obsession with anything Apple.
I am the girl that enjoys being barefoot rather than wearing shoes.
I am the girl that gets home from school and puts on rubber boots to go out and feed cows.
I am the girl that likes to ride around on a fourvwheeler by myself to clear my mind and see how muddy I can get it.
I am the girl that would pick camo as a favorite color choice, if it was an option.
I am the girl that has a crush on Bon Jovi even though he is old enough to be my dad.
I am the girl that has feelings that are kept inside that no one will ever see.
I am the girl that makes *him* smile in ways that no other is possible of doing.
I am the girl that wants to have every thing perfect but is FAR from anywhere being perfect.

Therefore, I am a girl of many traits. There are many more that are not on this list, but you get the point.

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My Oxymoronic Life

Well these days my life seems to be an Oxymoron. If you are inside and look outside you would think it was a nice warm summer day with the sun shining and a nice breeze. Perfect for the beach. Then BAM! you walk outside and it is 30 degrees.
Another oxymoron thing I do is at night. I enjoy drinking a glass of chocolate milk (which of course is loaded with sugar). Well then I can't sleep. In this case I down a couple sleeping pills WITH the chocolate milk. As you can see, I like to balance things out like a Chemistry equation. If I fail a test, I make sure and keep the rest of my grades up. If I know I am doing bad in a class and cannot change the fact, I work extra hard to be perfect in another class. If my make up looks wack on one side, I do something to the other to make it not look so bad. Same with my hair since I magically have 2 cowlicks in the back of my head(thanks DAD), that look like 2 perma-bumps. My life is awkwardly balanced and I enjoy it that way. If I was unbalanced in any way, I would be a very distraught person.

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